Use Me, God?

Use Me, God?

Have you ever prayed about something and God answered it completely different from what you expected? Literally have you sitting there looking like…

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I often ask God to use me but of course, according to my comfort level. I don’t want to be in the middle of the ocean with a life jacket and no rescue boat in sight especially since I don’t know how to swim. What happens when the currents get strong and the waves keep crashing and all I can do is float and trust God?

Well, I cry. Get mad. Cuss some poor undeserving soul out, usually an innocent character on a television show. Literally, go off on God. And wait for the storm to pass.

I’m not really trusting God then, am I? How willing am I if all I do is complain and be scared? Where’s my faith?

If I keep expecting God to keep me comfortable, there’s no way I can grow, there’s no way my faith can grow. I need to trust God further and deeper and that comes from me stretching and going through some things.

I have a vision in my head of how I want things to go. I have a vision for my life. But I know that God has a vision bigger than anything I can imagine. I had to learn to detach from the process and trust God. God places dreams in my heart because they will come to pass and things won’t always unfold how I expect.

I’ve hard down prayed and fasted for some things and God heard me. I wanted a particular job so bad and was so upset when I didn’t get it. I didn’t realize God was protecting me until He gave it to me because I kept whining and crying. I finally learned that I don’t always know what’s best for me and that an important part of my life journey is trusting the One who created me. I may want the job or Michael B. Jordan or car but if God said “no,” there’s a reason.

I don’t get hung up when things don’t go my way or as I intended anymore. Of course, there’s disappointment, but God got me, always. And at the end of the day, I want to be of service to the kingdom so if that means going through some valleys and uncharted territory then so be it. If I want some “eyes haven’t seen” and “ears haven’t heard” blessings then I have to be ready and willing to be used and get ready to be uncomfortable.

Surrender and get ready for the ride.

As always, take what you need and leave the rest.


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